When it is become UNBEARABLE

Dear Diaries, 

Every girls dream a perfect relationship and a loving partner. She longs to have things that way. But what movies and fairytales show is an extremely exaggerated version of the real picture. No one has such high hopes, but everyone hold expectations do so I. It was before. What girls actually want out relationships isn't that tuff riddle. They want a partner who sticks by them through all the bad days. Someone who acknowledges her even she is at her worst. Someone who pampers as well as dominates her. There has to be a balance. Girls long for a feeling of security in their relationships. It makes them special and loved. They love being shielded. But at the same time there has to be trust, a lot of it. There has to be permanence. Fling has just not meant to them. And the most important thing, there has to be love. Not the fake one, but love, in its true, real and actual sense. The fake promises of getting star down to the earth don't work. The real one of growing together mean a lot to her. Actually, public display of affection isn't required. What matter the things that you whispered in her ear when you alone. This isn't much of work or energy, show your love, prove it, don't just talk or promise. When there is love, all these things automatically present. For what can do in relationship, gift and money can't.

"What every girl want is a guy who cares, not a guy who'll pay for her dinner and pay for all her fancy fares"

Allah tests us, He just want us to keep praying, knee down to Him, tell Him everything, and ask Him everything. He knows the best. How far we go, we deny, we stay away, when Allah wills, the moment will come. Bear this in our mind.One thing, always keep this as our motivation;

 " When a fairytale got hundred pages to reach a happiness, so do us :') "

Sincerely - Unspoken Girl -

You Left Her ? How could you ?

Next Chapter - Perak

Hyeeeeee :'D Assalamualaikum. Awkward pulak rasa nya :3

Cenggini, sory lah my bby blog, dr hari tu lagi nk update lah nak update lah, nanti lah, soon or later I will lah, n now, yeayyy, I'm updating my entry ! :) *excited*

Previous entry was about my condition at hospital. *hospitalized*

So hari nie nk bercerita pulak after discharged and progressing and now okay ke idak. *ececeehh* :D

Cenggini lagi, lepas discharged tu keadaaan bertambah lesu bila aku sakit tekak then bengkak gila muka sampai herot berot mulut nie haaaaa -.- Sangat lah teruk muka time tu. Yelah, dah kata operate keluar kan tulang gigi kan, sakit woooo !

Couples of day after that, *time tu fikir nak balik Perak ke tak* ramai gila datang rumah melawat. Sedara, kengkawan, jiran and sape sape jelah :D Nak kene mention, a big thnks to them sape yg dtg, for those yg tk dtg tu it's okay, as long as I always in your mind dah cukup dah. hahaa *perasan*  No lah, I mean through du'a pun dah sangaaaaaaaaattttttt bersyukur dah :)

' Classmate form 4 & 5 and geng selepak :') '

#Pika
#Amira Yusof
#FarhanaFaudzi
#Fazmeera
#Rossawanie
#Syafirah
#Azmeer
#Faris
#Anep

Yang ayat tak boleh blah dorang bagi time melawat tu. " Slow nya ain cakap, nie bukan ain nie. Kalau dulu ckp tk berhenti laju plak. hahaa Tk pe kiteorg tunggu ain yg dulu "

Perghh, aku nk sengih pun susah apatah lah lagi gelak. hahaa

Tp sekarang dah okay dah. I'M BACK TO NORMAL ! geee :D

Si budak laki yg dtg tu pulak, tk habis habis buat lawak dorang, Azmeer perli habis sampai duduk terkepit terkepit sebelah aku. Si faris nie rasa nk ketuk je Azmeer, anep pulak selalu tertinggal bas *org dh ckp lama baru nk gelak*

" Dorang nie perfect friends, semua cukup, asam garam, masin manis, masam semua terasa :) "

Now, talk about nak balik Perak pulak.

Guys, malam sebelum nak balik Perak tu, I got fever, flu, sore throat and headache. Ohh maii, sumpah tak nak balik lagi. And my stuff semua mama yg kemas, mama lipat baju, mama cari baju yg mana kene bawak. Mama sedia semua. I just lie on my bed at that time. *Malas*
Dalam keheninangan malam tu, *amboi* tiba tiba air mata mengalir sbb tk  bersedia nk balik Perak lagi. Seems I'm not strong enough to face all the things there. Then Saturday Morning tu, I was being quiet since kat rumah sampai lah dalam kereta and sampai lah kat Perak. *haa, banyak sampai dia tu*
Nampak je board "Selamat Datang Ke Seri Iskandar" me sigh and says, malas lah balik sini. Patah lah balik, jom balik Subang :/  hahaa
Mama getting worried about me, takut malas belaja pulak kat sana. Sampai dorm, ada roomate baru nama nie MAZDIANA and NOMI AJEERAH *nomi tu since sem lepas rapat dgn dia and kami #KAKISTUDY and Alhamdulillah we gained our pointer :)*
Nak tak nak kene duduk U jugak kan, haihh, so dapat bilik baru tp tk ngadap budak laki, tak best ar mcm nie, cmner nak feeling blaja niee, dua sem lepas dpt bilik ngadap laki, nie tk dpt pulak :/ *mengada*
Hurm barang dah tk beli lagi, so mood nk duduk U pun tkde, so aku suruh mama stay kat Perak one night dulu, duduk homestay lah. Malam tu tido peluk mama jeee, nak nangis :'(
And before sleep tu, mama ada bagi ceramah dulu, untuk naikkan semangat nk start new sem nie :D For god sake, thnk you Allah give the best ever mom in this universe !!!
Then Sunday Morning, pegi Ipoh Parade, buying toiletries, handbag, shoes, socks, dictionary and else...
Penat gila jalan, then ada lagi something tk habis beli tuh, so continue kat Bandar U lah pulak.
Mama htr balik U barang barang, then mama dropped me and Nomi kat bandar U, nak tk nak kene beli barang jugak, malas dah nk keluar. Beli barang semua then balik U by bus, bapak bnyk brg, penat gila. Balik bilik, ya Allah bersepah gila bilik meh tgk gmbr :3 hahahaa

Tu baru nampak yg bersepah sikit, sena nya bersepah banyak, malas nk snap je :3 hehee
Then kemas barang barang malam tu jugak. Sampai lah pukul 2 pagi baru tido. Zzzzzz

K guys, first day class AWESOME ! First class should be Cadastral class and the lecturer's is PM. MAT SALAM :) *Pm tu, lahaii, risau lah pulak* Dia tk ada pulak, penat je bangun pepagi. Next, should be Mat Engineering class, then lecturer tkde pulak, then ptg pukul 2 Computer's class held by PM. REDZWAN *My Mentor :'D*

Bangunan Business Management. *Jauh gila jalan :(*

Classmate :') Some of girls :)

Jyeahh, class computer habis je. Ada perlantikan Class Rap, iaitu yg mengganti kelas rap lama *Nurul Nadhirah* ialah Zul Hazizi :) Dia okay, InsyaAllah will be the best for his classmate n other's. *Nadh pun dulu okay, tp tak nak dah. hahaa*
Then we're off to Bandar U, makan sesame. Yg ada hanyalah perempuan sahaja :) *Nadh, Kak Ida, Umi, Kak Ain, Adira and Me* Then dah makan terus balik U sbb we got meeting at 8 p.m at Pusat Islam, so nk balik rest lagi.

-MALAM MEETING-

Conclusion nya, Alhamdulillah. at first rasa malas semua tk de semangat, but now Alhamdulillah Allah has His own reason kan :') I've no confidence before, surely my mom always being here for me, always :') I love her. Allah give the best mom perhaps I she's my role model. She's my mom, best friend, doctor, teacher and everything, I love her :* Is it enough for me to have her only. When I'm about down, nobody's around me, she'll be here, hearing everything, be a good listener. *tears* Ya Allah, before this, I made so much wrongdoings and sins, and now I realize that "The thing we think the best, is the worst ever" Allah has turn this path to me, after knowing everything, my mistake, be to hurry in deciding the right thing or the wrong thing is the big regretless because once I'd live, I'll live for it. But I believe on Qadar' and Qadar'. For me, be here, aware that fake people around make me so strong because I'll be face them literally. We got to face so much things on wards, so be prepare, I'll make sure everything gonna be alright and I'll achieve what I've dream and take care of my mom :')

#GRACE

#Add life to your days, not days to your life :')

Operation at Hospital Sungai Buloh

Assalamualaikum.

Hai korang, Sabtu lepas I had an operation, takde lah serious mana pun operate tu, tapi di sebabkan tekanan  darah rendah and masalah ape tah lagi buatkan keadaan bertambah teruk.

Sebenarnya nak cerita Sabtu lepas kene operate 5 batang gigi, the worst and the hardest bila kene buang gigi bongsu yg still dalam gusi, tk keluar pun lagi gigi tu, just x-ray and nampak melalui x-ray, so kene lah buang takut mengganggu gigi gigi yg lain. 

Actually, time nak operate tu ada masalah sikit, gas ape tah, so time nk operate tu doctor suruh tarik nafas 3 kali then aku terus pengsan. *ubat bius lah tu* Then lepas operate, aku tak bangun bila doctor panggil nama suruh bangun, rupa rupa nya, aku ada masalah pernafasan dalam otak, tiub yg di masukkan dalam hidung untuk gas pernafasan tak sampai ke otak, sebaik tak kritikal sangat. Doctor tu sendiri cakap kat mama. 

Tht's why org lain operate okay je boleh terus bangun aku tak bangun bangun, pastu darah rendah pulak. Badan aku amek masa sehari utk aku bangun, doctor dgn nurse tak habis habis ronda kat katil aku sbb risau tentang pernafasan aku tu. 

And now mata still kabur, pening, jalan kene pegang dinding sbb pening takut pitam. Ya Allah beri aku kekuatan ya Allah ya Rabb. Amin.

Nie blood clotted tetibe. 

Tengah menunggu panggilan dari bilik operation.

Nampak tak kat luar ward aku tu, tu lah katil yg akan bawak aku pegi bilik OT .

Nie gambar selepas operate, still under control sebab ada masalah pernafasan .

Thanks kpd mama yg ada siang dan malam teman kat ward, yg mandikan, yg suapkan makanan, yg jaga lebih drpd jagaan nurse kat situ :') Thanks mama, Love youu :*

Thanks untuk sedara Kak Long sekeluarga, Kak Ha sekeluarga, Kak Ani sekeluarga, Abe Miey,Along, Nina and Cik Yah sekeluarga datang melawat :)

Thanks utk rafiq dan hafis datang melawat kat rumah :)

And thnks to Safuan Akmam yg ada time kene operate, dia tunggu kat ruang menunggu time operate, sampai lah aku keluar bilik OT dia lah yg ikut sampai ke ward walaupun time tu aku tk sedar, dia ada kat sisi aku :') Thnks Safuan, you're the best ever friends !

And not forgotten to all my friends yg dekat mahupun jauh yg selalu tanya khabar, thnks taw :*

Braces Girl :')

Assalamualaikum People ! :D

Nie sebenarnya nak cerita pasal Braces. Firstly korang, procedure nak buat braces nie bukan nya senang, banyak yang kita kene buat. As a Braces Girl, I'd like to give as much as I can of how precedure or step by step before and during wearing braces :) Read this carefully.

- Bagi gigi yang jarang jarang tu, nak pakai braces tak ade lah susah, sebab di nyatakan senang ialah, gigi yang jarang hanya perlu di rapatkan sahaja, dan masalah hanyalah kekurangan gigi. *Tengok condition gigi jugak*

- Bagi gigi yang terlebih kedepan or tidak teratur *gigi kelam kabut like me* procedure die susah sikit, perlu di susun dan di cabut gigi yang berlebihan dalam 4-6 batang gigi. *Ikut pada sesetangah gigi juga*

Firstly, saya buat gigi nie, kene set appointment siap siap, 1 or 2 month before confirmation nk buat braces lah lagi bagus. Saya buat kat clinic swasta *sebab nak cepat*. For those yg nak buat kat clinic kerajaan tak ada masalah :) Boleh je, tapi faham faham lah kan, kalau kerajaan memang makan tahun kalau nk buat braces, kalau nk buat time form 5 masa sekolah rendah dulu dah boleh register untuk buat gigi nie. Lama kaaannn -.- K berbalik pada tadi, kat clinic swasta nie kalau nak buat braces it's better for us to spend  around RM 6 K sbb cos yang di kenekan memang mahal gilaaaaaa ! Normal lah swasta, ade quality sikit :)

K first buat gigi nie Kita akan di X ray gigi 2 kali, then masuk bilik surgery tu, doctor akan check gigi, bersihkan gigi, then macam macam lah. Macam swasta cepat, janji ade duit dia buat lah. First day dah kene pasang separator, nak tahu separator tu apa ? Bawah nie :

Haa nie gambar separator, nama pun separator, die nak jarak kan gigi tu, nanti nak pasang besi kat situ *2 WEEKS WEARING THIS*.
Then dalam masa pasang separator. At first lagi doctor dah cakap yg saya ada masalah, umur 19teen kan, so gigi bongsu baru nak tumbuh *sebelah kiri*, gigi bongsu tu dalam gusi lagi, nampak sikit, di sebabkan gigi bongsu tu mcm senget sikit, I have to do an operation for that. Sebab kat dalam gusi lagi kan. *poor my bby tooth*
Nie gambar gigi bongsu :

Lepas buat surgery untuk gigi nie, tersangat lah sakit walawehhh ! Astaghfirullahhalazim, sangat sakit, after a few hours, my mouth getting swollen, I can't even talk, just guna bahasa isyarat, can't walk like normal, kene jalan slow slow, can't drink wisely, can't eat, just minum air nasi yang mama buat, and I've got fever after that, Mata merah, bibir merah, muka panas, headache, and paling sakit tmpt jahitan tu, tk boleh tersentuh pun.

Dah dah cerita pasal surgery, then lepas 5 hari okay dah bengkak, then boleh nganga semua, appointment utk buat braces pulak.

Selepas 2 minggu pasang separator, separator akan di tanggalkan then pakai lah besi kat dalam tu, pakai braceslah pulak, yang ikat ikat tu memula tak sakit pun, sikit pun tak sakit, cuma dia take time lah, dalam setengah jam lebih nak pakai tu. Mengenai warna, nanti doctor suruh kita pilih nk warna ape *Now pakai warna kuning* :D Okay done with that, pakai braces nie dalam masa dua tahun, within five weeks akan ada appointment and betulkan balik braces tu, kene tukar warna braces. Setiap 5 minggu jumpa doctor dia kan ketat kan balik braces kita, so appointment lah, bagi gigi berlebihan, selepas 5 minggu pakai braces, bagi gigi yg doctor cakap akan di cabut akan di cabut selepas 5 minggu pakai braces. *Tak cadang lagi lepas tu nak pakai warna apa*

FYI, tahu tak, hari tu ada buat appointment kat Hospital Sungai Buloh, kan tadi tu first operation, nie second operation kat Hospital Sungai Buloh, kasi pengsan punya -.- Kene cabut 5 batang gigi, 1 operate, 4 cabut, so dia tak kan bius ubat kebas, dia inject ubat tido terus. InsyaAllah tengok lah macam mana esok pihak hospital suruh pegi amek due date kot, InsyaAllah second operation cuti seminggu time Christmas tu bulan December nie InsyaALLAH :') Pray for me guys, Love You :*

Sedikit information :
Barang sesiapa yang bila gosok gigi je berdarah gosok je berdarah, anda di nasihatkan gosok tempat berdarah tu lama lama sampai kurang berdarah, di nasihatkan guna brush teeth yg SOFT punya.
Kalau still bleeding mcm time makan ke, better refer pada doctor :) Thank you :')

NAK TAHU SAKIT KE IDAK, KEADAAN PAKAI BRACES AND TATA TERTIB NYA ?
TO BE CONTINUE :')

Brighten our life with colorfulness,

Life is a beautiful,

Look down it's nothing,

Look ahead, look forward

There's a long life journey.

copyright@AinPanaaa

Surgery Went Well :)

Hey. Assalamulaikum :')

First of all, I would like to thanks to my mum who's always be there when I need her.
Okay, it's just a simple, I'm done with the first surgery. Alhamdulillah. In Shaa Allah I'll do another surgery within this 2 month. Yeahh, it's hurt, but not take a long time to be hurt lah beby :') Sekejap je.
Medication semua kan ada :) At first nak buat surgery nie, I had a problem....
While me and my mom waiting for my name's to be call, my mum went to toilet, I'm alone, and after a few seconds, nurse called my name to come in, me just like. huhhh :O Ohh maaiii, my mum, I don't feel like ' I AM OKAY ' if she's not be there with me. Doctor's come in that scary room and ask me " Dear, have you eat somthing ? Done for lunch ? " "Urmm, I'm done with breakfast but that was at 9 am, now it's noon, so I need to lunch." "Are you hunger now ?" "Yeah, I think so" *while she's asking me those question, she give me an injection, such as numb injection* Then the doc said, while I'm not ready for this surgery, my hand is too cold, I'm too scare, she can't do this surgery, so postpone for this surgery, she let me out for a while, take a breath deep, cool down and havings lunch first :) haaaahhhh, yes I'm not ready because my mom's not in there. No no no nooo :(
Next, tak boleh nak kunyah lah, mulut dah kebas, so at that time I do know how's feel being stroke, when my mouth can't functioning at all. K I'm going back to surgery's room, doctor said she can see that I'm no longer scared of :')
Injection for a second time, I can't feel anything. Then black out -.-' hahaa
The surgery's done very well by Doctor Anitawaty. Thanks to her, she's so lovely and a very kind person.
 Now tengah sakit kat rumah, can't eat even a grain of rice, can't drink smoothly, can't talk, can't walk like usual I have to walk slowly, if I'm not, time jalan rasa sakit kat mulut sbb hentakan kaki bergegar kan.
Ya Allah, get me well soon Ya Allah.
And thanks to my friends yg baik baik hatinya tanya keadaan dah okay ke tidak :') Thanks taw, can't wait to see them soon, A NEW ME :'D *AIN PANAAA*

With Siblings :*

We're Awesome Sibling, and the most awesome is Me. ahhaaa *evil laugh*

We went out just three of us, on  3/11 we went to Sunway Pyramid and 9/11 we went to Times Square :'D

Kat Sunway just jalan jalan biase je :) Tapi kat TS nie kiteorg pegi main ROLLER COASTER :D Whoaaa, the roller coaster was so great ! No wonder ramai takut, laju gila, tk sempat nk bernafas kat atas tu. Dua kali aku naik :3 hehee

Aku nie jenis tahan lasak, degil, keras kepala, plus suka activity outdoor, that's why bnde alah nie main bebanyak kali pun tkpe :) Kakak aku nie nak main, tapi nk muntah lah ape lah, hahaa

 Adik aku nie main bnde pusing pusing mane tah, boleh pulak lepas berhenti berlari p tndas terus muntah. Haihh, dorang nie tak seganas aku lah -.- That's all. Take a look all of our pictures babe :'D

Photo at Sunway Pyramid :)

This is me, Ain Panaaa :) Ignore the slippers --'
See, I'm simple person.

Havings Meal with Burger King :D

Next, Some Photos at Times Square :)

This Is The Game :'D #PeningPutarLigat

Dah pening main mende alah kat atas tu, kiteorg pun pergi lah main game budak budak tu,
 yg train budak budak punya then kuda yg bergerak gerak tu. hahaa :]
Train pulak yang bergerak alahai slow die tak nak kalah tu -.-''

Thankful To Allah.

Assalamualaikum, Selamat Tengah Hari Guys :'D

Alhamdulillah. Izinkan saya berkongsi cerita tentang satu bende :')

Alhamduillah, syukran Ya Allah :') 9/11/2012 aku dapat resut untuk Final Exam Sem 2, Ohh mai, Thanks to Allah. Even I'm not in Dean List but I'm too happy for what He has grant for :) Fyi, predict aku utk result nie mcm mcm dlm kepale nie, takut sangat ade repeat sbb ada dua kertas aku balik je dorm nangis, jalan kaki sengsorang dlm perjalanan balik dorm tu air mata dah mengalir ke pipi. Sakit yg memakan diri aku plus exam yg buat fikiran nie bercelaru buat aku lemah seketika. Tapi Alhamdulillah, ada hikamh di sebalik nya. Btw, I want to thanks to Zul because he makes me strong, every time when I'm fallen for, crying for, always messed around, he give me a spirit. When I'm down and trying for built a new me, a new spirit, he's there. And a big thanks for him, thanks for teach me, advice me, help me and else :) You such a nice boy Zul, no wonder Lecturer cakap kau muka baik. hahaa

Btw, yg kawan yg lain lain tu, same jugak, byk bagi semangat, yg mana study sekali, yg sanggup dgn bby blaja sesame tu, ajar mcm mcm, hope next sem boleh struggle mcm sem 2 nie *tapi lebih struggle :)

Pointer naik, Alhamdulillah, walaupun tak setinggi mereka mereka, tapi Alhamduillah, aku rasa bersyukur sebab naik mendadak, ramai yg terkejut jugak lah kan, dorang tgk aku dah hopeless and aku rasa diri aku useless je time tu, tapi Allah bagi aku keuatan buktikan ape yg aku mmpu :)

Hope next sem, InsyaAllah.

And last but not least, a million thanks to my mom who are my spirit, my strength and my everything. Guess what, mama call aku sehari minimum 3 kali sehari, seminggu agak agak kira lah sendiri :) Ohh mama, a big thankful to Him because give me a super duper mom who are care so much to her beloved daughter nie :* hihii Walaupun mama tak berape puas hati dgn result sbb mama kata ' sikit lagi ' :') Tapi mama cakap next sem try be harder than this okay. Okay ma, won't spoil it.

Separator Braces

Assalamualaikum Semua :')

 Hari nie awkward sikit lah, bukan awkward nk update entry, tp awkward nk bercakap. Habis aku pelat S dah. hahaa No wonder ramai ckp akan pelat.

You know what, today is my big day, konon nya nk pakai BRACES :D Nak story lah nie.

First pegi Clinic Dental Surgery. Oh maaiiii, Excited sangat ! Tapi belum pakai lagi lah braces nye. huhu
First X-Ray,banyak kali pulak tu x-ray, entah aku terlalu rendah tk padan dgn bende tu or org tu salah x-ray, at last doc sendiri dtg x-ray kan. Then, nk nak start doc bincang dgn mama procedure nye.
The, first BERSIHKAN GIGI, pfft, sakit ohh die cucuk cucuk kat celah celah gigi gusi aku nie. urghh
Aku duk tahan sakit je, for god sake it's a little bit hurt. Lama pulak bersihkan gigi, darah dan byk gila keluar aku dapat rasa and doc kata gigi aku mmg byk keluar darah, dah lah sakit sikit. Then kene tampal yg berlubang. hahaa
Lepas tu doc kata GIGI BONGSU BARU NAK TUMBUH :O Alahai, secoet je gigi bongsu nye pun -.- Then aku kene cabut, kalau kat clinic nie payment RM500, kalau kerajaan free. Confuse, banyak tu nk kene bayar pulak, so nk tunggu pegi kat gov clinic lah, kat Sungai Buloh. Kadang terfikir jugak quality nye, main cabut je gigi aku kang tercabut semua plak --' Pastu tadi tampal je. Then nnti lepas 5 minggu selepas dua minggu pasang braces kene CABUT EMPAT BATANG GIGI -,- *habis lah rongak aku lepas nie
Next, tampal je, lepas tampal tu pasang bnde kuning ape tah, first kat gigi bawah boleh tahan, ketat gila bnde alah tu, pastu sampai kene kat gigi atas, boleh pulak aku nk muntah dialog doc;

" Jangan muntah jangan muntah, tarik nafas, tarik nafas dalam dalam tahan muntah, saya tk nak buat dua kali, tarik nafas ikut saya. " aku nie dah mengalir dah air mata tahan muntah, dia terus duduk kan aku. Sebaik tak muntah, kalau muntah elok sangat lah sbb aku baru lepas makan nasi :3 hahaaa

Lepas tanggal bnde alah kuning tu baru lah pasang SEPARATOR nya, yg nk jarak kan gigi gigi kat belakang atas and bawak untuk mudahkan supaya ada ruang dalam masa 2 minggu lagi nk pasang braces nya.
Tahu tak ape rasa nya pasang separator tadi, rasa macam daging terselit kat celah celah gigi :/
Sakit lah jugak, tp now okay lagi, doc kata pagi esok bangun sakit sikit, aku rasa bukan sakit sikit, sakit banyak nie :'/ urghh


Bagi yang kurang jelas cenggini :

HARI NIE PASANG SEPARATOR, NEXT 2 WEEKS I'M GONNA WEARING BRACES YANG COLORFULNESS TU :D *Excited !* 
Gambar Separator sikit eh bagi yg tk tahu, sorry gambar download je pffttt --'

 TO BE CONTINUE...

When she says

" This life is what you make it. No matters what, you're going to mess up sometimes. It's a universal truth. But the god part is what you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember; some come some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember sisters also make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well they come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them, actually pretty much all of them, are going to break your heart. But you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna  fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on and always always always believe in yourself., because if you don't, then who will sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and mostly important, keep smiling because life's a beautiful thing & there's so much to smile about. "


" I believe that everything happens for a reason, people change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes, good things fall apart so better things can fall together. "


" I'm selfish, impatient and a little  insecure. I make mistakes. And out of control and sometimes hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. "

by Marilyn Monroe