When it is become UNBEARABLE

Dear Diaries, 

Every girls dream a perfect relationship and a loving partner. She longs to have things that way. But what movies and fairytales show is an extremely exaggerated version of the real picture. No one has such high hopes, but everyone hold expectations do so I. It was before. What girls actually want out relationships isn't that tuff riddle. They want a partner who sticks by them through all the bad days. Someone who acknowledges her even she is at her worst. Someone who pampers as well as dominates her. There has to be a balance. Girls long for a feeling of security in their relationships. It makes them special and loved. They love being shielded. But at the same time there has to be trust, a lot of it. There has to be permanence. Fling has just not meant to them. And the most important thing, there has to be love. Not the fake one, but love, in its true, real and actual sense. The fake promises of getting star down to the earth don't work. The real one of growing together mean a lot to her. Actually, public display of affection isn't required. What matter the things that you whispered in her ear when you alone. This isn't much of work or energy, show your love, prove it, don't just talk or promise. When there is love, all these things automatically present. For what can do in relationship, gift and money can't.

"What every girl want is a guy who cares, not a guy who'll pay for her dinner and pay for all her fancy fares"

Allah tests us, He just want us to keep praying, knee down to Him, tell Him everything, and ask Him everything. He knows the best. How far we go, we deny, we stay away, when Allah wills, the moment will come. Bear this in our mind.One thing, always keep this as our motivation;

 " When a fairytale got hundred pages to reach a happiness, so do us :') "

Sincerely - Unspoken Girl -

You Left Her ? How could you ?

Next Chapter - Perak

Hyeeeeee :'D Assalamualaikum. Awkward pulak rasa nya :3

Cenggini, sory lah my bby blog, dr hari tu lagi nk update lah nak update lah, nanti lah, soon or later I will lah, n now, yeayyy, I'm updating my entry ! :) *excited*

Previous entry was about my condition at hospital. *hospitalized*

So hari nie nk bercerita pulak after discharged and progressing and now okay ke idak. *ececeehh* :D

Cenggini lagi, lepas discharged tu keadaaan bertambah lesu bila aku sakit tekak then bengkak gila muka sampai herot berot mulut nie haaaaa -.- Sangat lah teruk muka time tu. Yelah, dah kata operate keluar kan tulang gigi kan, sakit woooo !

Couples of day after that, *time tu fikir nak balik Perak ke tak* ramai gila datang rumah melawat. Sedara, kengkawan, jiran and sape sape jelah :D Nak kene mention, a big thnks to them sape yg dtg, for those yg tk dtg tu it's okay, as long as I always in your mind dah cukup dah. hahaa *perasan*  No lah, I mean through du'a pun dah sangaaaaaaaaattttttt bersyukur dah :)

' Classmate form 4 & 5 and geng selepak :') '

#Pika
#Amira Yusof
#FarhanaFaudzi
#Fazmeera
#Rossawanie
#Syafirah
#Azmeer
#Faris
#Anep

Yang ayat tak boleh blah dorang bagi time melawat tu. " Slow nya ain cakap, nie bukan ain nie. Kalau dulu ckp tk berhenti laju plak. hahaa Tk pe kiteorg tunggu ain yg dulu "

Perghh, aku nk sengih pun susah apatah lah lagi gelak. hahaa

Tp sekarang dah okay dah. I'M BACK TO NORMAL ! geee :D

Si budak laki yg dtg tu pulak, tk habis habis buat lawak dorang, Azmeer perli habis sampai duduk terkepit terkepit sebelah aku. Si faris nie rasa nk ketuk je Azmeer, anep pulak selalu tertinggal bas *org dh ckp lama baru nk gelak*

" Dorang nie perfect friends, semua cukup, asam garam, masin manis, masam semua terasa :) "

Now, talk about nak balik Perak pulak.

Guys, malam sebelum nak balik Perak tu, I got fever, flu, sore throat and headache. Ohh maii, sumpah tak nak balik lagi. And my stuff semua mama yg kemas, mama lipat baju, mama cari baju yg mana kene bawak. Mama sedia semua. I just lie on my bed at that time. *Malas*
Dalam keheninangan malam tu, *amboi* tiba tiba air mata mengalir sbb tk  bersedia nk balik Perak lagi. Seems I'm not strong enough to face all the things there. Then Saturday Morning tu, I was being quiet since kat rumah sampai lah dalam kereta and sampai lah kat Perak. *haa, banyak sampai dia tu*
Nampak je board "Selamat Datang Ke Seri Iskandar" me sigh and says, malas lah balik sini. Patah lah balik, jom balik Subang :/  hahaa
Mama getting worried about me, takut malas belaja pulak kat sana. Sampai dorm, ada roomate baru nama nie MAZDIANA and NOMI AJEERAH *nomi tu since sem lepas rapat dgn dia and kami #KAKISTUDY and Alhamdulillah we gained our pointer :)*
Nak tak nak kene duduk U jugak kan, haihh, so dapat bilik baru tp tk ngadap budak laki, tak best ar mcm nie, cmner nak feeling blaja niee, dua sem lepas dpt bilik ngadap laki, nie tk dpt pulak :/ *mengada*
Hurm barang dah tk beli lagi, so mood nk duduk U pun tkde, so aku suruh mama stay kat Perak one night dulu, duduk homestay lah. Malam tu tido peluk mama jeee, nak nangis :'(
And before sleep tu, mama ada bagi ceramah dulu, untuk naikkan semangat nk start new sem nie :D For god sake, thnk you Allah give the best ever mom in this universe !!!
Then Sunday Morning, pegi Ipoh Parade, buying toiletries, handbag, shoes, socks, dictionary and else...
Penat gila jalan, then ada lagi something tk habis beli tuh, so continue kat Bandar U lah pulak.
Mama htr balik U barang barang, then mama dropped me and Nomi kat bandar U, nak tk nak kene beli barang jugak, malas dah nk keluar. Beli barang semua then balik U by bus, bapak bnyk brg, penat gila. Balik bilik, ya Allah bersepah gila bilik meh tgk gmbr :3 hahahaa

Tu baru nampak yg bersepah sikit, sena nya bersepah banyak, malas nk snap je :3 hehee
Then kemas barang barang malam tu jugak. Sampai lah pukul 2 pagi baru tido. Zzzzzz

K guys, first day class AWESOME ! First class should be Cadastral class and the lecturer's is PM. MAT SALAM :) *Pm tu, lahaii, risau lah pulak* Dia tk ada pulak, penat je bangun pepagi. Next, should be Mat Engineering class, then lecturer tkde pulak, then ptg pukul 2 Computer's class held by PM. REDZWAN *My Mentor :'D*

Bangunan Business Management. *Jauh gila jalan :(*

Classmate :') Some of girls :)

Jyeahh, class computer habis je. Ada perlantikan Class Rap, iaitu yg mengganti kelas rap lama *Nurul Nadhirah* ialah Zul Hazizi :) Dia okay, InsyaAllah will be the best for his classmate n other's. *Nadh pun dulu okay, tp tak nak dah. hahaa*
Then we're off to Bandar U, makan sesame. Yg ada hanyalah perempuan sahaja :) *Nadh, Kak Ida, Umi, Kak Ain, Adira and Me* Then dah makan terus balik U sbb we got meeting at 8 p.m at Pusat Islam, so nk balik rest lagi.

-MALAM MEETING-

Conclusion nya, Alhamdulillah. at first rasa malas semua tk de semangat, but now Alhamdulillah Allah has His own reason kan :') I've no confidence before, surely my mom always being here for me, always :') I love her. Allah give the best mom perhaps I she's my role model. She's my mom, best friend, doctor, teacher and everything, I love her :* Is it enough for me to have her only. When I'm about down, nobody's around me, she'll be here, hearing everything, be a good listener. *tears* Ya Allah, before this, I made so much wrongdoings and sins, and now I realize that "The thing we think the best, is the worst ever" Allah has turn this path to me, after knowing everything, my mistake, be to hurry in deciding the right thing or the wrong thing is the big regretless because once I'd live, I'll live for it. But I believe on Qadar' and Qadar'. For me, be here, aware that fake people around make me so strong because I'll be face them literally. We got to face so much things on wards, so be prepare, I'll make sure everything gonna be alright and I'll achieve what I've dream and take care of my mom :')