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Thursday, 5 December 2013

Kekuatan. Semangat. Dari siapa ?



Assalamualaikum. Dah lama rasanya saya tak update blog. Dari aku bertukar ke ain dan kini bertukar kepada panggilan saya, rasanya panggilan ini lebih manis kan :)
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Langit tidak selalu cerah tidak selalu mendung, roda berputar tidak selalu di atas, tidak selalu di bawah. Begitu juga kita. Perjalanan hidup kalau tak ada rintangan tidak cantik coretan lembaran setiap hari kan. Allahu, sejujurnya, bukan mudah untuk menjadikan sesuatu yg kita impikan itu kenyataan. Hidup onak duri itu biasa, jerih perih setiap muka surat yg tertulis itu permulaan cerita. Jangan takut, jangan gentar, Allah itu ada. - INNALLAHA MAA'ANA. Ramai yg bertanya kepada diri ini macam mana boleh hadapi segala rintangan dan menjadi kuat. Bibir tersenyum.. Dan jawapanku " Bukan senang nak jadi senang, Allah akan duga hamba dia yg mampu sahaja, kita terpilih ambil lah kesempatan itu "
Sejujurnya lagi, berat mata memandang berat lagi bahu memikul, berat lagi yang menghadapi, berat hati untuk mengatakan yg diri ini terlalu kuat. Mulanya hati meronta, jiwa sengsara sehingga aku jumpa jalan kembali, aku cari ketenangan dan Dia pengubat segala - ALLAH SWT.


Hidup penuh liku, itu hidupku. Hidup kamu juga penuh liku, tetapi tidak sama kerana Allah sudah cantikkan jalan yg liku itu, lain hidup lain ujiannya. Faham kan :)
Benar kata ibu " bukan mudah mencari sahabat baik di muka bumi ini yg terima kita seadanya " Kekadang diriku alpa, terlanjur kata kata, terpukul di mana mana, terngumpat sesiapa, terkasar bahasa, terkurang ajar tidak semena. Mereka yg tidak boleh terima itu perlu belajar menerima dan melihat kekurangan diri sendiri, termasuk diri ini, nauzubillah. Dunia, manusia, harta benda, pangkat, wang, darjat dan kekuasaan menguasai diri kita. Tidak semua manusia sebegitu, tetapi ada. Wallahualam, semoga kita di jauhkan. Sebaiknya ' HUSNU DZON '

Manusia seringkali pentingkan diri terkadang sperti chipsmore, dikala senang muncul di depan mata, dikala susah hilang tiba tiba. Perih hati menahan sakit didada. Semoga Allah merahmati hubungan kau, aku, kamu, saya, dia, mereka, dan kita semua. Moga dijauhkan dari manusia yg sebegitu rupa.

Saya berkata lagi kepada mereka yg bertanya; jika ada sesuatu yg menyakitkan di hadapan mu, kawal perasaan itu, kawal hati, kawal air mata, teruskan hidup, buat biasa, jgn sesekali rasa kita keseorangan, percayalah, Dia ada rencananya tersendiri, la tahzan ;)

Dalam hidup ini, yg pertama semestinya Allah swt. kedua Rasul, ketiga Kalamullah, keempat, Malaikat, kelima hari Qiamat dan Qada' dan Qadar . Pesanku untuk diriku dan kamu kamu, letaklah Allah di atas sekali, nescaya hidupmu akan tenang ibarat nur yg menerangi setiap hari, kekuatan diri bermula dari engkau letak Dia di mana ? Tepuk dada tanya selera. Bak kata org modern, " kita ikut je flow~ " Katalah apa kau nak kata, kita Islam ada cara kita, agama kita.

Keluarga, Usrati. Family.
Adalah 3 perkataan yg berbeza, tetapi maksud yg sama maknanya.
Bila air di cincang tidak akan terputus ya ? Inilah keluarga, darah daging yg mana apabila si adik dan si kakak seperti anjing dan kucing bercakaran tidak kira siang dan malam, dengan hanya ikatan " DIA KAKAK KU, AKU ADIKNYA " Kita tidak akan bergaduh bertahun lamanya, tidak akan terpisah *kecuali kahwin :P dan tidak akan ada istilah putus couple putus couple :)
Percayalah Allah dah tentukan sebaik baik manusia dalam hidup kita. Jika ada kekurangan, itu lah penyeri sebenarnya, sekali lagi " Allah duga hambanya yg mampu " Bersyukurlah..

Jika ibu dan ayah ku pergi menghadap ilahi suatu hari nanti, pernah kah kita bertanya pada diri ? Apa kelengkapan, apa persediaan diri ini untuk mereka di saat itu ? Bangun dan tengok lah diri ini di cermin, apakah diri ini cukup sudah untuk hari mereka nanti. Sesungguhnya manusia di dalam kerugian. Saya tersedar apabila ada ceramah berkata hal yg sama. Video Ustaz Don ini yg menyedarkan diri ini dgn pertanyaan semua itu.





Bumi ini semakin tua, umur semakin meningkat, mati tidak kira usia. Bila Allah kata " Kun fayakun " kita kene terima Qada' dan Qadar. Selagi hayat di kandung badan, maka carilah ilmu itu, Bukan ilmu di dunia sahaja, di akhirah juga. Cari lah ilmu utk kali yg terakhir kepada org tua kita. Ilmu menguruskan mereka di saat mereka ingin bertemu kepada yang Maha Pencipta. Carilah ilmu itu. Kepada diri sendiri, janganlah kau alpa dgn dunia yg sementara ini.

Kita mati sekali, kita hidup dua kali, berjuanglah untuk hari mati kita nanti yg sekali itu. InshaAllah tidak sia sia. Besar ganjaranya di akhirah kelak.Wallahualam :)


Bila aku berkata benda yg baik, tidak bermakna aku ini baik. Sampaikan lah walau sepotong ayat. Kepada diri sendiri, Stay strong, hasbunallah wani'mal wakil.

p/s : Apa yang di sampaikan tidak di tujukan kepada sesiapa, ini di olah berdasarkan apa yg berlaku di sekeliling kita, pengalaman dan cerita mereka dan mereka.

Sunday, 4 August 2013

I wish I did it ;)

There once was a man and a woman who had been married for more than 60 years. They talked about everything. They kept no secrets from each other except that the old woman had a shoe box in the top of her closet that she cautioned her husband never to open it or ask her about it.
For all these years he had never thought about the box, but one day the little old woman got very sick and the doctor said she would never recover.
In trying to sort out their affairs the little old man took down the shoe box and took it to his wife's bedside. She agreed it was time that he should know what was in the box.
When he opened it he found 2 beautifully crocheted doilies and a stack of money totaling over $25,000. He asked her about the unusual contents.
"When we were married," she said, " my grandmother told me the secret of a happy marriage was to never argue. She told me that if I ever got angry with you, I should just keep quiet and crochet a doily."
The little old man was so moved, he had to fight back tears. Only two precious doilies were in the box. She had only been angry with him two times in all those years of living and loving. He almost burst with joy and happiness.
"Sweetheart," he said... "that explains the doilies, but what about all this money? Where did it all come from?"
Oh," she said, " that's the money I made from selling the doilies."

Saturday, 13 July 2013

Penghijrahan Aku.

Salam Alaykum semua Yaa Akhi and Yaa Ukthi belaka belaka :)
First of all, Allah, lama bebenor rase nya tak update entry. Memang pun lama. busy sangat. Sangat.
Semester 4 berjalan dengan lancar. Alhamdulillah nak istiqomah kan diri nie still in progress, biarlah perangai suka ckp byk tu tak berubah, suka kenekan org, mengade and bla blaa, tapi dr segi akidah Alhamdulillah ada perubahan. Bila naik semester 4 semua orang perasan yg Ain dah lain, and they keep asking, Allahurobbi terharu sebenarnya bila ada yang mendoakan AIN FARHANA ;)
Sebenarnya, Ain berubah atas nama Allah, wallahi Ain rasa menyesal, bertaubat atas dosa dosa ain yang dulu.Setiap hari Ain menangis dalam bilik, setiap kali kaki melangkah ke mana mana mesti hati Ain akan rasa gelisah semacam, Ain akan rasa berdosa sangat, nak menangis and menyesal sangat, menyesal.
Ain boleh rasa semua tu adalah sebab Ain pernah mimpi 3 kali Hari Qiamat. Ain mimpi hari qiamat, time tu Ain tkde sape sape kat kiri and kanan Ain, Ain sorang sorang. Tak tahu hala tuju. Ain tgk kejadian dasyat tu. Allahuakbar, Ain pun terjaga waktu malam, bangun menangis kat tikar sejadah. Ain pun tanya roomate Ain, kenapa ain boleh dapat mimpi mcm tu, takut, sedih nak nangis semua ada :'( Dia pun kata:

" Hidayah itu milik Allah, Allah berhak memberikan hidayah Dia ke atas sesiapa yang Dia kehendaki, kita kene bersyukur dapat hidayah mcm tu, Allah pilih awak "

Kawan kawan, doakan penghijrahan Ain, ain update nie pun bukan sebab ape, sebab ramai tnya, and Ain nak cerita dasyatnya HARI KIAMAT, manisnya perubahan. 

MUJAHADAH ITU MEMANG PAHIT, TAPI KETAHUI LAH YANG SYURGA ITU MANIS :')


Saturday, 8 June 2013

Randomly Entry.

Assalamualaikum. Allahuakbar ! Lama dah ain tk update blog kan. Cuti semester akan berakhir beberapa jam je lagi. Couple an hours I'll going back to Seri Iskandar and sambung belajar untuk semester yg ke 4 :)
Semorang ada yg happy, ada yg tak, ada yg sebak, sedih rindu semua mixed feelings. So me, yeah the fact is I am not ready going back to Perak. Be at home comfort me well. Ahh sedih sedih. Dalam sehari mesti akan cakap tak nak balik Perak. *sigh* Sedih tak ready and nak happy mcm kat rumah. Tak best duduk perak. Bak kata orang " di sebabkan nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga " So yeah, for me bukan sebelanga, sekawah dah -.- Sambung blja nak, tp kat situ tak nak. Ahh dah lah cerita pasal sedih tk nak balik  Perak tu. Yer tak sedih tak sedih ;)

Tukar cerita, selama 2 bulan cuti semester, ain punya jadual hr hr pack gilaaa lebih dr org yg bekerja. hahaa
Pergi beli barang perabot baru utk rumah, then repair rumah, pergi semua tmpt kat selangor *takde lah semua :3* Then pergi Langkawi awesome sangatttttt ! Then balik Kelantan ya Allah lama tak jumpe sedara, asyik kene perli je balik. Ayah sedara tanya, " so bila lagi nk balik ? Tahun 2020 pulak ? hahaa " Actually merajuk aku sampai 2 tahun tak balik kampung, dasyat tak ! :D
Then pergi Thailand :) Jumpa sedara mara sepupu sepapat nenek and kampung Thailand ! Lama tak balik Thailand dalam 10 tahun kot. Everythings look same as before :) Then balik dr Thailand singgah Kelate then balik Selangor :) A day after kami pergi ke Terengganu pulak, sepupu rapat kahwin kene pergi bohhh :D
Alhamdulillah paling kelakar 3 kali lafaz akad nikah :P Takpe, now semua dah lepas and dia dah jadi suami orang so Happy Wedding Day Angah !

Now pukul 4 lebih, pagi buta sorang sorang, lagi 20 % tak siap pack. So nk tido jap, jap gi nak bangun packing balik :| Penat tahu -.-

Other than that, Ya Allah aku tak minta kau datangkan aku seorang lelaki sesempurna manusia kerana aku tahu kekurangannya akn aku cukupinya. Tetapi aku minta jangan terbolak balikkan hati aku dalam mencintaimu. Ya aku happy aku bersyukur atas kehadiran nya. Aku hargai semua. Tetapi aku tidak tahu masa hadapan, kau yg menentukan, aku serahkan semua pada kau setelah aku berusaha :')


Okay Perak actually I miss you. Di mana tempat aku perlu habiskan cita cita ini biarlah onak duri ombak pantai aral melintang pun, aku redah :) Wallahualam !



Thursday, 16 May 2013

Songs of Judika. Attempting.

These songs by JUDIKA :) Banyak lagu die yg best best. So I choose these songs.
First ' Bukan Dia Tapi ku ' second ' Setengah Mati Merindu' :) I'm not the kind yg feeling feeling gila dengar lagu mcm tu je, ain akan fahamkan the lyrics and baru lah minat. So Enjoy guys.







Andd this is the cerita yg buat ain rasa kehilangan itu. This drama sangat feelings and touching habis. Nenangis kite tengok cerita nie. #CintaJanganPergi
Sekali sekala tengok TV amekauuu terus feeling sampai nenangis. haha


Zikir Terapi Diri #HafizHamidun

Without Your help. Without You even a second. I am nothing. When we're up, we are always forget to remember Him, when we're down, the one we seek for help and forgiveness is up there. Allah Ta'ala. Remember. Not always we're at the top. And this ' Zikir Terapi ' always accompanying me whenever I am sad or I am happy :) I make it like a song and always sing it. And Alhamdulillah, I can feel the real serenity. This song's very calm. People, try hear this :) InshaAllah...


Shining from Allah. Grace also from Him. Alhamdulillah :) #REJAB

Assalamualaikum there :') 12.57 a.m. As usual. I want to thank to Allah Ta'ala. I am grateful of everything I have. Almost one year I feels totally grief. Mama tried so hard pretty things just to make me happy and smile back. Now not a press conference or so what ever okay. hihii I am here, late of night, wanna share somethings.

I AM HAPPY ! BIG GIRL IS HAPPY. ALLAH TA'ALA HEARD ME. HE HEARD EVERYTHING. THIS IS MY SECOND CHANCE ! *wanna scream out !!!!!* *Alhamdulillahhhhh !*

Almost one year people. One year which is my world was so soooo dark. Even there's so much stars, I didn't see one of them is shining. Now, Alhamdulillah. Mama told me. Every time she prays, 5 times a day, she keeps asking to Allah why her daughter didn't same as before, she keeps telling that she is unhappy, she want to find the answer from Him. She asked to Allah Ta'ala to give the best ever this time than before ;) Ohh Mama, I don't know how to appreciated all of this. It's a big big mean to me. And you made it sooo meaningful in my life. With your barakah and grace of Him, I will follow as you wish mum, I will :) And Kakak, thanks for supporting. I love you !
And not forgotten who is always be my reporters/PA/bestfriends/girlfriends/lesbo/tutor/lecture/teacher/sister/siblings/doctor/tukangurut/pedandanrambut/counselor/spirits/ and bla blaaaa thank you so much for hearing everything. New Rejab is very mean a lot to me :) New calendar, new year, new books, and I AM BACK.
MAMA WAS SO HAPPY, I CAN SEE HER SMILED :)

I  can see the shine now. It's very shining with Allah's grace :)
Ohh Allah, bring us to your path, ameen :)

Tuesday, 14 May 2013

Salam Rejab. Muhasabah Diri.

Salam Alaykum. Last updated it was April. Now middle of May :) Not so long right, but I can feel the dust here and there.

Alhamdulillah, I am healthy now, with colorfulness of life :) Alhamdulillah. I through it and only me know how bad it feels and how hurt it is. Urm actually not fully recover but I know I can do it, I can get through all of this, I'm strong enough kan :)

Omgeee, I met my old friends past few days. Schoolmates. Classmates. I miss them so much. Truth, I miss being a child, miss being a school girl. I just miss it. Allah has arrange everything and everything went well. We don't have to sigh right, every single things happened to us, bad or good, it was a fate, from Qada' and Qadar. No need to sigh like " Kan best jadi die tu " Kan best kalau dulu tk pilih nie" We as His servant should be thank to Him. His bless after all this while. He never give up to keep forgive us n keep give us His Grace. Fact, my old world is not as good as people think. It's difficult when facing people and smile while indeed we were not. I keep finding my happiness until now. I'm not looking for a partner. I am looking for my Imam for my Jannah soon InshaAllah. I am not a kind of person be hurry in finding the perfect match, I just want to get a happy life, not be broken ones, and don't want a couple or etc. Because all this while I felt when I loved someones, he is my everything while actually I am nothing. So it once only. No more.

Here wanna talk about mama. Mama, pardon me ma. I know I keep doing the same thing, I keep hurting you, make you worried, make you grief all the time thinking about me. Forgive me ma please. That's all out of my mind ma. I tried so many times as you know. I prayed. I cried. I asked. I'm done ma. I know you fiercely want to see me happy, smile, laugh and jokes all the times like before like always. I know mum. I will back to normal. People. Now it's new Hijrah for us, muslim :) New Hijrah for me. Please Farhana. Think about your mum, your future. Allah Ta'ala has arrange everything clearly, problems with solutions, sadness with happiness, and your perfect fairy tales story with your spouses by Allah Ta'ala coming soon InshaAllah. I know you can. You know you can. Stop feeling that you're betray. There's reasons behind the reasons.

I am happy being at home. Being closed with my family. My old friends who's keep make me laughs and I miss being here. I don't want be back to Perak. Please. How fast times flies. Here I want to show some of my photo being at Selangor and I am happy more than Perak seriously.







Wednesday, 24 April 2013

Unsaid Feelings. Pray for me.


Assalamualaikum semua. 
Hari nie, ain tk tahu nk ckp mcm mane. Firstly mcm nie, ain tengok kisah cinta, ceramah agama semua, kisah couple and else in path way of Islam. Okay tipu kalau kata tk pernah bercinta,wallahualam jodoh tak panjang, tp ain tk tahu sama ada ain betul betul pasti ke tentang semua tu dulu. Tapi sekarang ain dah sedar, ain sebak sebenarnya bila mama cakap;

" kenapalah sekarang nie mama selalu tengok adik byk diam n murung je since that day "  and me answered;

" Eh mana ada ma, I am okay, adik happy je, ma tak nampak ke adik gelak semua, mana ada * sambil mengukir senyuman* "

Betapa sebaknya perasaan time tu, ain betul betul rasa nak menangis dah, bergenang air mata nie tp tk nk tunjuk depan mama. Alhamdulillah, sikit sikit Allah bukak pintu hati nie. Ain sebenarnya banyak belajar ilmu agama dan sedang belajar lagi, ain bukan seorang perempuan yg baik yg solehah, tp skrg nie ain cuba n till one day tu ain cakap kat kawan baik ain sendiri " Eh, saya rasa saya kene berubah ke arah yg lebih baik, saya kene tinggal semua yg lagha, buang semua negative thought and jgn pandang kepada yg mungkar sbb saya nak nnti suami yg baik baik dan zuriat yg baik di sisi Allah". Allahuakbar, ain boleh cakap mcm tu.
Tp itulah, kita nak berubah menjadi muslimah perlu guider kan, kalau ada org boleh guide kita, nasihat kat kita, selalu tegur kita, InshaAllah boleh, sebab org sekeliling tu sangat penting bagi ain.
Hari tu ada berjumpa dgn Ustaz, die tnya ain, " ada selalu amal 99 nama nama Allah tak setiap hari ?"
Ain dengan tergamamnya, ain tak berkata kata, ain terus terdiam dan dengan airmata yg mengalir kat pipi ain nie telah menjawab semuanya. Mama pandang ain dgn perasaan yg hiba. Ain faham tu. Then, ustaz tu datang dekat dgn ain dan cakap, " Lepas nie kalau nk kuatkan hati, kita kene selalu ingat Allah, amalkan 99 nama Allah setiap masa, lepas tu jgn lupa ayatul kursi ". Alhamdulillah, pada mulanya, ain solat, sujud yg terakhir ain, airmata mengalir sehinggalah ke lafaz doa ain yg terakhir selepas solat. Ain tk mintak banyak, ain cuma mintak hilangkan rasa sedih dalam diri nie, dan sembuhkan semua penyakit yg ain ada dalam diri nie ya Allah....... Ameen....

Berbalik kepada cerita atas tadi, selepas ain tonton video video ketuhanan dan yg penuh dgn keinsafan nie, ain rasa betapa hina nya diri ain, ain tak cukup baik lagi, banyak dosa dosa lampau yg ain buat dan sekarang. Ain dgr semua tu ain rasa sedih sangat sebab ain menzalimi diri ain sendiri dan zuriat ain yg akan datang sebab, ain menginginkan lelaki yg baik untuk zuriat ain, tp ain sendiri tak sebaik apa yg ain nak, walhal dalam al- Quran menyatakan



Allahurobbi. Banyak yg perlu di perbetulkan. Ain tengok org lain bertudung labuh, dengan sayu nya ain nak sangat bertudung labuh, ain tgk org lain yg berpurdah ain sebenarnya teringin. Tapi titik permulaanya dari hati kita yg ikhlas kan, tp bila ain mula sikit sikit ke arah itu, ain rasa selamat. Ain mintak mama belikan ain tudung yg labuh, dress yg besar besar, skirt yg besar tk ketat, stoking kaki n kasut yg betutup or kasut yg sesuai dgn stoking. Ain mintak sangat.. Mama kata nanti mama akan beli :') Ya Allah, betapa bertuahnya aku di muka bumi ini.Kasih sayang seorang hambaMu ini tidak terperi ya Allah.

And, actually, kami bercadang nak ke China or Bandung on this Mei. I was so excited gila and fikir nk shopping semua n jalan jalan. And sampai lah satu malam tu airmata ain mengalir, mungkin rindukan seseorang, ain terus pegi solat ain menangis ketika berdoa dan sampailah terdetik kat hati ain, ain rasa ain nak sangat pergi Umrah.......
I told mama, " daripada g China or Indon tu, baik g Umrah dpt tenangkan hati "
Yelah, cuba kita fikir, hidup kat dunia nie, kalau kita tk mengadu kat yang Maha Besar, kat sape lagi, kalau kita cerita dekat kawan kawan, diaorg memang ada dan dengar, tp Allah lah pendengar setia. Allah tak kan biarkan hamba Dia keseorangan kan.
For the sake of Allah, ain tak tipu, ain nk pergi umrah, ain nk tengok rumah Dia, ain nak mengadu kat Dia secara lebih dekat, ain nak rintih kat Dia apa yg ain rasa walaupun Dia dah tahu, ain nak jumpe dgn Dia, ain nak Dia kuat kan lagi hati ain, ain nk tabahkan diri ain yg selalu jatuh nie. Ya Allah, wallahi niat ain nak berjumpa dengan Dia....

P/S Ain tak tahu lah dapat pergi ke tak, tp sungguh, ain nak sangat, ain nk berjumpa dgn Dia yg telah ciptakan kita... Doakan ain dapat pergi Umrah :')

#Kat luar hujan, tadi tak pun, mungkin Allah tahu niat aku nk jumpa dgn Dia.

Monday, 22 April 2013

Sanah Helwah 20 Years Old :')


Sanah Helwah Ain Farhana @ Ain Panaaa :')
Alhamdulillah on 16th APRIL 2013 I turned to 20 years old people !  Yeay, I become a women maybe. hahaa Alhamdulillah, my days was very awesome. Alhamdulillah. People I loved most have made my days. Mama and kakak :') I couldn't replace anyone just like them. Ya Allah, ya robb, Alhamdulillah, every falls I made, you be there, everytime I sad, you hear what I complaining, everytime I happy, you be there seeing me. Sometimes kan, I don't even understand what you're planning for me, but I believe on your way, and have faith towards you, you've planned everything well. I shouldn't question all of that. Ya Robb, forgive all my sins. I know I've done a lot of mistakes, all my sins. Open my heart, let me be ' Kekasih Of Rasulullah '. 
On 16th April, I was crying when mom's give her hugs to me, at that time I remember all of her sacrifices just for me, she never let me down, she's always with me, people, when I cry, the tears from her eyes will falling down too , she has tried so much pretty hard things to get me better, recover with all the saddest things that has happened.
Thank you Allah because I know I'm such a stupid person ignoring the happiness in front of me while they loved me.

Thanks Allah for everything, thanks for the days whenever happy or not, thanks for the breath everydays I ttake, thanks for the awesomeness life, thanks for the chances , thanks for the happiness you give, thanks for the family you sent to me, thanks for the miserable things happened so I can learn from that, thanks for the person you gave and you take it away, thanks for the wonderful mom and sister, thanks for the strengthen you give to bear this pain, thanks for the diseases you test to me, thanks for the wealth and poverty you gave (Alhamdulillah), thanks for the shoes, clothes, dress, scarfs, and all things I wear, thanks for every step I take and every move I made :)

Syukran Jazzilan. Alhamdulillah. Jazakallah :')









My Feberet cake. Chocolate Vanilla with Chips :'D





Allahuakbar. Alhamdulillah. Jazakillah :)

Mereka menghadap Ilahi. Allahuakbar.


Salam Alaykum :')
Since a while I didn't update my blog kan. Ya Allah lamanya.
Sebenarnya, banyak nak cerita, panjang lelebar banget. Okay start cerita sebelum sem break yer. *now kat rumah dah*

Okay, 11/03/2013 Umie Nadirah telah kehilangan bapanya yg tercinta. Allahyarham telah menghadap ilahi dalam keadaan yg tenang sekali :') Itu apa yg ain tengok lah. Allahyarham seorang yg baik dan suka menolong org. InshaAllah semoga dia di tempatkan dalam kalangan org yg beriman, soleh, para sahabat dan syurga Al-Jannah. Ameen ya Robb.

Pada 15/03/2013 Shah Nazreen my classmate juga telah kehilangan adik tersayang. Allhuakbar. Tak terperi rasanya semua ini kan. Semoga Allahyarham di tempatkan dalam golongan para muslimin , sahabat dan para yg soleh serta solehah amin :) Syurga Al Jannah menanti mu InshaAllah.

Allahurobbi, ain faham keadaan mereka mcam mana, ain tahu perasaan sedih nya bila org yg kita sayang pergi menghadap ilahi, ain pun pernah hadapi jugak, dalam masa setahun ain kehilangan 5 org yg ain sayang dalam masa yg dekat dekat. Allahuakbar, tak terkata, tak terperi rasa diri ini apabila panggilan dari mereka serta message yg bertalu talu. Ya Allah, airmata mengalir tak boleh gambarkan perasaan yg sebenar.. Ain cum pegang ini, ingat lah,

" Allah berhak memberi pinjam apa yang Dia mahu, dan Dia juga berhak mengambilnya semula. "

Allah lebih sayangkan mereka :') Yang masih hidup ini InshaAllah be strong, Allah's with us.
Semoga Allahyarham itu tadi di tempatkan di samping orang yg beriman kepadamu Ya Allah. Ameenn. Al Fatihah...


Next entry (Sanah Helwah To Me) to be continue..


Wednesday, 17 April 2013


A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same.
All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

[Chorus]
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, it's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

[Chorus]

Everything I know, and anywhere I go,
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
And when the last one falls, when its all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.


#A great song to a great person :')

Saturday, 23 March 2013

I need you. Seriously.

When I feel I want someone's to talk to, I want someone's be by my side, I want to drop my tears away, need a shoulder and feels that I'm alright, you're not here. How terrible I feel, How sad I through this without you *sigh*. Ahhh, I've to realize that I couldn't get you by the time, I just re-read our old conversations. While reading all of that, I feel peace and calm. I know you can't be here with me right now, I know deep inside you wanted so much I be strong and you hate seeing me feeling totally grief indeed. Okay, it's okay, I set in my mind from what I've been read :') Deeply heart you.

Thursday, 21 March 2013

Best Ever Video Proposed :)


Assalamualaikum :')
This is the best video that I've been watched !
Every person in this world want their ' fairytales ' comes true, so I am :')
But believe, Allah has arranged everything, all of us have our difference journey.
So her and us. 
During watching this, my tears fall down, how happy is she right.
Her husband makes her proud of him. With lot of surprise and he proposed her, that was so cute ever propose.
He've been rejected, but he never failed, he never give up.
I also proud of him, hope you guys together through thick and thin till Jannah :')
' Love After Marriage ' ;)

P/S : It's not an easy to get a happier life,  you must through such a harder life first, then, the reward you'll feel the bless after it.

Inspired by : DENA BAHRIN :')

A Talk About Final Exam


Assalamualaikum people :')
Firstly, I am thankful to Allah bcs give me the hard heart, and the strength to through so many things that act I think I couldn't bear it. Alhamdulillah, everythings was fine :)
And people people, note this, EXAMINATION just around the corner, and I was sooooo nervous :/ Hopefully, I can be the best. Amin. And also to all of my friends, girls, guys, classmate ever, roommates, partner, bestfriends, closed friends, haters, lovers and Uitm's Students:

                                               GOOD LUCK FOR FINAL EXAM ! :)
Do the best, make them (parents) proud of you, make the tears come out from their eyes is a proudly things ! InshaAllah, if you make them proud, Allah will booking a place in ' Syurga ' for you, not only just proud, be the soleh and solehah son and daughter too :) Allah will love you more if you love your parents and always put Allah in the first stage ! Barakallah :')

Untold.

Mendoakan seseorang itu di belakang pengetahuan seseorang itu adalah lebih baik dan InshaAllah di makbulkan. (Ustaz Hamdi, 2013)
Makbulkan doa aku ya Allah...

Thursday, 14 March 2013

One Night Only #DinnerGeomass 2013


Let's start the Party :'D ! 























Actually, gambar yang kurang senonoh tu adalah sebab dan akibat terluka sebenarnya. Bila dapat tahu something malam tu, mula mula speechless then Razan said " Baby, ape nie senyap je, nie malas nie, this is our days, nak happy happy, bila lagi, skrg nie lah nk happy happy, chill lah :) " *time nie mata dah merah n keep saying "aku okay razan" sory being lied *
So I went to toilet, drop my tears away n look at the mirror and I said " EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT AIN FARHANA, CHILL BABY CHILL, THIS IS YOUR NIGHT "
Then, only one tears, I cheers up the night with my classmates, closed friends ;)
and I went to INSANE :'D
It's okay,  as well as I can see they laugh n enjoyed the night I'm the happiest person :')


#Maz always said, " this is the beginning of your journey, there's a disasters not come out yet. Be strong, keep your tears, it's not worth when you waste for the wrong person :') " ahhh

Day by day I can see the truth, why me ;'(

Tuesday, 5 March 2013

Enjoy This Romance Song :)


Setia Hujung Nyawa

Aku tak bisa menidakkan rasa cinta
Meski ku tak bisa melupakan salah mu
resah hatiku
Maafkan diriku
Melukakan mu
Cinta jangan engkau pergi
Jauh dari diri ku lagi
Sesunguhnya cinta kita
Setia ke hujung nyawa
Bila tersedar betapa tulus cintamu
biar apa pun yang menghalangnya
tak kan pernah bisa
dari diriku
menjaga cinta mu
tuhan tolonglah aku
satukan aku dan dirinya selamanya
maafkan diriku
melukakan mu
cinta jangan engkau pergi jauh
dari diriku lagi
sesungguhnya cinta kita setia ke hujung
nyawa
cinta ku tetap di sini
takkkan pernah jauh dari mu
oooooo

I love this song, and I'm in love with this :)
Accompanying me every night. Yeah every night.


La Tahzan Innallaha Ma'ana :')


Assalamualaikum :') Olaaaaa !
Dah lama sangat ain tk update entry kan, dah sampai berhabuk semua, on je selalu, tp tk tahu nk update apa. Kadang nk update tk sempat lah, line wifi masalah lah. Tkpe hari nie InshaAllah okay :')
Things going fun, ain happy sangat dengan kawan kawan yg ain ada sekarang ini. Walau terpaksa tempuh bermacam macam dugaan, ain rasa ain masih lagi kuat utk tmpuh semua nie, kawan kawan kan, mcm mcm ragam, org sekeliling pulak, bila dengar yg tu totally dia akn rasa yg negative je pasal org tu. Truth, kene tahu dua dua belah pihak, tak salah pun kan, tp itu lah, berfikiran positive jelah. Jgn buatkan diri sendiri rasa sakit.
Alhamdulillah, walau bermacam macam ain dgr, mcm yg ain ckp, dgr dr pihak ke tiga tu ain tk consider sbg betul, I being a positive person :') Tak kisah lah, pandai pandai lah, tp please, jangan lah sampai burukkan nama orang okay, Wallahualam, ain ingatkan diri sendiri jugak :)
Orang nak cakap apa, biarkan je kan " Berdiam lebih baik dari berkata kata " Tp bg ain, baik luahkan apa yg kita rasa, nanti diri sendiri jugak sakit, tp ada caranya :)
Bila tengok gambar gambar yg dulu, rasa rindu sangat sangat time kita dulu dulu, even ain tk seberapa rapat dgn sesetengah mereka, tp ain dpt rasa yg ain bahagia bila bersama kwn kwn.
Bila ada yg mengatakan
' airmata menitis bila imbas kembali zaman kita dulu dulu, kenapa dengan kita sekarang nie '
 Everyone's upset. Tak tahu lah kalau ada yg tk rasa mcm tu.
Cuma apa yang ain belajar dari hari ke hari;

" PEOPLE DO GIVE A WORDS, BUT THEY WILL EVENTUALLY CHANGED AND FORGET WHAT THEY'VE BEEN KEPT BEFORE "

Other than that, I'll share about my life, my flows, my days n etc :')
Alhamdulillah, bila ain rasa ain nk jatuh balik, ain fikir satu je, Ohh Allah sayang aku rupanya, dia still lagi sayang aku tht's why die bagi aku dugaan macam nie :)
Kawan kawan di sisi yg always bersama kesini kemari kesana kesini, they made my days :'D !
Bergelak tawa, bersuka ria, hari hari penuh dengan senyum tawa kami.
But deep inside, no one knows right ;)
Rommate ain yg selalu hari hari setiap kali ain balik bilik mesti tnya okay tak hari nie, mcm mana dgn hari nie, ada apa nk cerita, kenapa dan mengapa ? Ahh, ain beruntung ada rommate mcm dorang.
Kami bertiga ada masalah, tp kami cuba mendengar masalah masing masing, dan cuba memahami, mana ada masalah kita sama kan, dugaan lain lain :)

Previous days; ' When there is no Sun it's like a night, when there is no Moon, no shine either '

When the tears fall down, I just want to say, thank you Allah for give me this strength :')

When there's a word goodbye and act showed, meaning, we must leave it. Ohh Allah, take this away please.

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